Little Girl Lost

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There once was a little girl, she was sweet and loving, the way a child is. She had blonde hair and was ever so tiny. She loved everyone she knew, she looked at the world through eyes that had not been wounded by this world.

In her 4th year things began to change, the world moved into her consciousness and pushed out the light that we are all born with. She became aware of pain. Her world, as she knew it, began to slip away, began to change, it was replaced with a world of pain and fear.  To be such a young age and to begin this life of fear, so hard.

Then the girl is a teenager and all she wants is to be loved and accepted. She is not even aware of her feelings. She does not know why she sleeps around or why she dabbles in drugs and alcohol. She is not aware of what it means to “mask the pain”   She is too young to know what is happening and there is no one there to guide her out of the darkness she has sunk into.

Now the teenager turns into a young woman, wife, and mother. She feels the light but she doesn’t live in the light. She has been fooled!  She believes there is something more out there and that she is connected to it. And it is not that there isn’t but she isn’t....not as she thinks she is. And still she has no one there to help guide her, help her get fully into the light and understand what it means to be in the light, to be of the light.

Then like a flash the young wife and mother is a middle age woman. Those crazy wild days are long behind her, but she is still searching, she is not there yet,  but she is oh so close. Now she is becoming aware of the “missing” light in her life. She is still alone and still unguided but she is aware.

This story could be so sad! So heartbreaking. To think of a child all alone with no guidance in life, no love, to be in such pain and fear at such a young age! To have no one to explain and help her, guide her, to a better place.

It could be a sad story and yes… it was for many years. But the truth is this story not only has a happy ending but is truly one of goodness and victory!  If it were not for this life then this girl would not be the woman she is today and for that she is grateful!  Today she is a strong woman! She knows who she is and why she is here. She realizes the life she led was to get her here, now, to be the victor! And she wouldn’t change a thing.

We go through life to get to the other side….. the journey through it should be one of challenges and growth! So what more could she have asked for? Only one thing….the awareness (early on) that she is strong, she is loved and IS love, and that the challenge, the journey, was to get to where she is today.  But she now has all of that and more, so all is well!

God bless and may everyone come to the realization that the challenge is not for nothing! You are running a race and will be a victor!

Ready, Set, GO!

spiritual counselor photo: Mystical Spiritual Travel t-mystical-spiritual-travel.jpg“Sing like never before, oh my soul, I worship your holy name”

I have been on a spiritual journey for more years than I can remember…I suppose we all have been right from birth. Some days I feel way more connected than others, like today.

Yesterday? yes!

The day before? Very much so as I visited my Father’s house.

Whenever I am in His presence I feel especially connected. And I know deep down that I do not need to be in any special place to feel His presence, I just need to be. And I am. He is present always, everywhere, and it is up to me to feel the connection, to allow it. And most times I do, but yes there are times when I become distant and He is always there, waiting for my return.

And for that I sing a song of praise and worship! Today has been a day of worship and it is good!

Today I returned to my studies, I have not really been gone from them, but I have been a little slow of late. But guess what? I am taking my second to last final exam! I have an essay to write then I have one more course (5 classes) to finish. After which I will have my Bachelor, and thus will begin my Master studies with specialization in Spiritual Counseling.

Yes, I’m excited to be here.  It has been a long road and I know it is only half over! Well….if I do decide to continue and get my Doctorate…..then the road is only a quarter of the way finished at this point! But I am good with that. It refreshes my mind, it thrills me, it reminds me that I am alive. (as a ***humble*** side note I am on the Honor roll for every quarter so far)

So…….. Ready, Set, GO! Let me have the blessings that You have promised me! Pour them out with no holding back! I am READY!